"To disappear if only for a day"

Tonight I am typing this blog at 2:30am on a very frigid night, the temperature on my phone reads -5.  Is that even a temperature?  This entire week has been a frigid week, so that means more time home wrapped in a blanket.  It was snowy, very blustery on Saturday which found me painting and then on Sunday despite I went to church for Mass, it was another day wrapped in a blanket painting. 

So why am I up at 2:30am writing this blog?  Because I cannot sleep when the bedroom is ridiculously hot.  My downstairs is just to cold even though the heat is set at 70 degrees. Don't worry, I don't have to work today, I get the day off for President's Day.  (I know, that is unusual)  And I can't seem to get someone off of my mind, which disturbs my dreams and sleep!

Will spring ever come?

View from my front door.

 

 

Looking out from my front door towards my driveway.

 

 

Now for the art...

 

This is made using pens and Prismcolor pencils

 

 

Then I found myself working on this next piece....

 

Again another drawing using pens and Prismcolor pencils.

I really like this one.  It needs a title.  My cousin said it should be titled "Beautiful."

 

 

 

An then there was Saturday, in my "studio."  Oh, how I wish I had that studio with tons of windows overlooking a garden in the sunshine.  Hey one can dream, after all I seem to be stuck in this winter orbit that won't let me out!

 

 

 

Paintings are made with acrylic paint. Nowhere near complete!!!

detail of the painting

detail of the painting.

detail of the painting.

 

 

 And then there was Sunday...

These drawings are made with pens. 

 

detail of drawing

detail of drawing.

 

 

Despite it was frigid out I accomplished a lot of art.  Today I have off from work, because my agency likes to celebrate President's Day. So a massage is scheduled and more art will be done. 

As I focused my mind on art this weekend I was content to be in my own little world.  It was nice to hide away since it was Valentine's Day.  As a single lady, who is always single, this day just brings more awareness of my "status" compared to others who rave about their relationship.  Well, this is what I came to the conclusion, I get broken hearts from men, but my heart never breaks when I love myself and God. 

 

My favorite song is "so I pray" by Jem.  click on the link, hopefully you can hear the song.  It is a song I relate to, which helps to validate my thoughts.  Sometimes I want to stay single, sometimes I want to run away, most of the time I want to share a life with a man who is in love with me.

 

 

http://youtu.be/CIJlbEjbbgA

 

Storm is brewing in the air tonight

So many pressures on my mind
Want to escape, just wanna run away
But it's not an option, I have to stay

And so I pray
I wish that all these things would go away
To disappear if only for a day
No, I can't go but I don't wanna stay

Can't believe the irony
The thing I wanted is killing me
All the happy smiles I miss
Didn't think it would be like this

And I pray
 I wish that all these things would go away
To disappear if only for a day
No, I can't go but I don't wanna stay

Storm is brewing in the air tonight
So many pressures on my mind
Want to escape, just wanna run away
But it's not an option, I have to stay

And so I pray
I wish that all these things would go away
To disappear if only for a day
Know I can't go but I don't wanna stay
To be left alone if only for a day

I wish that all these things would go away
(Pray to you, I hope it will be alright)
To be someone else if only for a day
(And over soon, I feel it)
Know I can't go but I don't wanna stay
(Hope that you hear me)

Read more: Jem - And So I Pray Lyrics | MetroLyrics

 

Caroline